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Why do we need a 2X4?

No.  I am not talking for building houses and such.  They are definitely required for such endeavors.

I am talking intuition.

The Feather

Oftentimes, when we are looking at a choice, we get “information” about that choice.  And it usually comes in the form of some feather-like touch from God or the Universe or whatever your flavor is for that higher knowing.  We get a gut feeling that it might not work out so well.  Or maybe a little voice inside us tells us that it’s not such a great idea or that there’s something better out there.  Whatever form the message comes in, it is usually delivered with something very light and subtle.

It’s not that we don’t hear it or feel it.  It’s not that subtle.  We usually “get a sense” about that choice.  We just choose to bypass it.

The 2X4

Since we choose to ignore the feather and bypass that knowing, we usually get the 2X4.  We tell ourselves, “I’m sure it will be fine” or “I’ll just try it for a little bit” or some other justification for ignoring that little voice or that gut feeling.  (Maybe the fact that we are looking at it as a short-term trial should be a red flag, right?)  We move forward into the choice anyway.

Things usually go horribly wrong at this point.  Well, maybe not right away, but pretty quickly.  We get more and more information about the choice, maybe even daily.  And we tell ourselves that we are stuck now.  “I should at least give it a fair shot and 2 weeks isn’t really giving it the ol’ college try.”  Maybe the money is good.  Maybe it isn’t the money, but the people you’re around…maybe they are really fun.  Maybe it’s the environment.  But now we’ve convinced ourselves that we are somehow obligated to stay.

And the information keeps piling in.  We see things we don’t really wanna be seeing.  We hear things we don’t really wanna hear.  We keep telling ourselves it will get better.

It doesn’t.

The Fall Out

It can be pretty ugly.

We may not be consciously aware of it, but by this point, we are so thoroughly disgusted with ourselves for not listening to that little voice 4 months ago that there is no pretty way to exit.  So it can be ugly.

Now, we’ve seen things and heard things and we have all that information seething and writhing wanting to just spew out.  We know the “other side” of things now and there is no un-seeing or un-hearing.

We cannot un-know what we know.  (Think about how silly that is.)

No Question

Again, notice there is no question anywhere in this.  There is lot of decision and conclusion (all the have-to’s and obligations).  Not-so-much question.

So, what would it take to remain in the space of question so that we don’t have to get a 2X4 to the head to get the message??  What would it take to listen to the little voice in the first place?  Would it make life easier?  Would that be fun or what?

What would life look like if there were no more 2X4’s to the head?

It might look like less drama.  More fun.  More peace.  Less angst.  Less obligation.  More joy.

Yes.  Thank you.  I’ll have more of that please.

In Gratitude,

One Conscious Chick!

Where’s the Question?

Yesterday I wrote about going all-in.  After I posted it, I became aware of something new.  Don’t you just LOVE that??!  I know I do.

WHERE’S THE QUESTION?

Seriously.  Where was the question in all that?

When I am hyper-focus, I don’t seem to be asking any questions either.  I tunnel-vision question right out of my life and living too.  Interesting choice.  WHAT ELSE IS POSSIBLE??

So, what would it take for me to remain in a space of question?  What would it take to remain in a space of making choices (instead of completing obligations, etc)?

Oh!  And Let’s Not Forget….Where’s The FUN?

I mean, maybe for some people, tunnel-vision is fun but for me, it is not!  So what would it take to have more fun?  What would my life look like if I had “tunnel-vision” on fun???  Ooooooooooooohhhhh, that sounds…well…fun!  I’ll have more of that, please.

Anyway, that’s all.  Just desired to share that tid-bit of awareness too.  hehehe

In Gratitude,

One Conscious Chick!

All-In

I have this ability to go “all-in” in life.  And sometimes, I find, that can really muck up the waters if I let it…and I often let it.  What else is possible with that??

*LOVE* the ALL-IN Side

(Can you hear the sarcasm there?)

Honestly, most of the time, going all-in is great and it works well for me.  It often means that I live life fearlessly.  I make a choice and dive right on in….full throttle.

My all-in side is actually why I’ve been MIA here and in other venues where I was pretty active and social and working.  Interesting choice, right?

How All-In May NOT Work For Me

When I go all-in on a project, I am hyper-focused until it’s complete.  But what if that project doesn’t complete?  Well, then I find myself allowing that project to consume my life….sun up to sun down.

Example #1:  I recently took a position as a barn manager.  It was something I’d desired to do for quite some time.  So, I was excited and dove right in….all…in.  I found myself going in early and staying late, working through lunch, putting in long (physically demanding) days, all much to the frustration of my neglected family.

You see, my all-in nature sometimes means that I hyper-focus on ONE thing, get tunnel vision and then everything else gets missed because it’s not in the tunnel.

That can be very detrimental.

Lovin’ My All-In

There are lots of things that are great about this all-in nature.  What comes with it is an intensity….an intensity of caring deeply, an intensity of play (when I’m not in hyper-focus-project-mode), an intensity of gratitude and dedication, an intensity of anger and an intensity of loving deeply.

It means I don’t withhold.

I don’t love someone a little now, and a little more in 6 months.  If I love you, you get ALL the love.  I don’t care a little bit.  If I care about you, you get ALL the caring.  If I am upset with you, you get ALL the upset (usually short-lived, mind you).  If I laugh, you get ALL the laughter.  If I am in a sarcastic mood, you get ALL the sarcasm I can come up with in that moment.

I Don’t Know How to Do it Any Other Way

That’s the coolest part.  I really don’t.  I don’t know how to love someone half-assed.  I don’t know how to do a job half-assed.  I don’t know how to be a half-assed smart ass.  (What would that look like anyway??)

It makes me pretty intense.  Sometimes that intensity is twisted and perceived as anger by others and that’s OK because I love my intensity.  My two darling children know that I love them…ALL…THE…WAY.  They never seem to question that.  My horse knows that I adore him ALL-IN.  My puppies know that I adore them ALL-IN.  My fiancé knows that I love and adore and am grateful for him ALL THE WAY.  And then there are people who likely know that I do not like them even the tiniest little bit, so I dislike them ALL THE WAY.

Now, I have to go intensely clean the house which has been pretty neglected too.  Time to show the house some love as well.

In Gratitude,

One Conscious Chick!