I would imagine that just about anyone can relate to the story I’m about to share, on some level…in some way in your living. And with this story came the huge awareness, although it’s been told to me a dozen times or more, that going to the wrongness of me is just … silly, useless, non-contributing, a waste, etc.
How many times do you go to the wrongness of you?
I recently met a nice guy while on a trip. He asked to get to know me more and we communicated via email a few times. Then I had a “me” moment…he emailed me letting me know that he was in town and that he hoped I was doing well. I responded that I was doing great & hoped he enjoyed his stay.
THEN I talked to my dear friend and she let me know that while she knows that I’m not like most women, not everyone is aware of that. And that most women would have seen a hidden question…basically that he was asking about my availability. I so did not get that! (Cute, not bright.)
I emailed him back to apologize for not seeing the hidden question, if that was the case. And I did not hear back from him.
Although I did not beat myself up relentlessly or anything, I did even if only momentarily go to the wrongness of me.
He must not be interested anymore.
I must seem like a complete flake!
I don’t live close enough to him.
Like I said, I didn’t beat myself up. I didn’t dwell on it. The judgments were fleeting…and they were there.
How About You?
Have you experienced this? Maybe you showed interest in something/someone and that fell flat. And you made it about something wrong with you. Maybe you had a business venture that seemed to be going well and then just fell through and you thought you’d done something wrong.
Does any of this sound familiar?
This week, I got an email. My last email had gone awry and he hadn’t received it. And he had many of the same thoughts I’d had (She must not be interested…blah, blah).
We met up and had an enjoyable evening. We laughed at the rouge email. It was quite fun!
Here we were thinking we were both wrong…even if only for a moment.
I perceive that this occurred so that I could experience first-hand the complete lack of value there is in going to the wrongness of me in any given situation. It is such a waste of time and energy, if you like to look at it that way. In this instance, it was a great learning possibility for me!
Time for change?
Would you like to give up going to the wrongness of you?
Would you like to let go of all the judgment you impose on yourself that makes you the eternal and infinite WRONG in your life?
Would you be willing to move through life with the awareness that nothing is wrong…it is all part of the journey?
How might that impact your life?
How does it get any better than this?!
One Conscious Chick!